Far Away Memories

Rho (ρ)

2006-12-06T18:19:00.000+02:00

I'm beginning to think that i have the ability to attract soccer balls (soccerballphile?) the way electrophiles attact electrons. I mean, every single time i play soccer, the ball is bound to smack right into my face and send my glasses flying. There was once when i excused myself from PE ( we were doing soccer training then) because of some back injury i had. The moment i could resume PE and entered the field, the ball landed right into my face again! And just today, i played soccer with some of my churchmates and you would've guessed it, i got smashed in the face AGAIN. Argh! But there was an additional injury today. My ankle's twisted because of the impact while deflecting a ball moving at high spd by Deyao. Now i'm partially crippled. >.<>

Pi (π)

2006-12-05T19:19:00.000+02:00

I did a survey on my temperament in church recently. And here are the results, based on Dekai's analysis.

PHELGMEL
(Combination of Phlegmatic and Melancholic)

Of all the temperament blends (there were Sanguine-San, Choleric- Chol, Phlegmatic- Phel and Melancholic-Mel), the Phelgmel is the most gracious, gentle and quiet. He is rarely angry or hostile and almost never says anything for which he must apologize (mainly because he rarely says much). He never embarrasses himself or other, always does the proper thing, dresses simply, is dependable and exact. He tends to have spiritual gifts of mercy and help, and he is neat and organized in his working habits. Like any phlegmatic, he is handy around the house and as energy permits will keep his home in good repair. If he has a wife who recognizes his tendencies toward passivity (but tactfully waits for him to take the lead in their home), they will have a gd family life and marriage. However, if she resents his reticence to lead and be aggressive, she may become discontented and foment marital strife (!!!). He may neglect the discipline necessary to help prepare his children for a productive, self-disciplined life and so "provoke his children to wrath" just as much as the angry tyrant whose unreasonable discipline makes them bitter.

The other weaknesses of this man revolve around fear, selfishness, negativism, criticism and lack of self-image. Once a PhelgMel realizes that only his fears and negative feelings about himself keep him from succeeding, he able to come out of his shell and become an effective man, husband, and father. Most Phelgmels are so afraid of over-extending themselves or getting overinvolved that they automatically refuse almost any kind of affliation (^^)

Personally I have never seen a PhlegMel overinvolved in anything - except in keeping from getting overinvolved (-_-"). He must recognize that since he is not internally motivated, he definitely needs to accept more responsibility than he thinks he can fulfill, for that external stimulation will motivate him to greater achievement. All phlegmatics work well under pressure (HAH), but it must come from outside. His greatest source of motivtion, of course, will be the power of the Holy Spirit.

Barnabas, the godly saint of the 1st-century church who accompanied Apostle Paul on his first missionary journey, was in all probability a PhelgMel (You think so?). He is the man who gave half his goods to the early church to feed the poor, the man who contended with Paul over providing John Mark (his nephew) another chance to serve god by accompanying them on the 2nd missionary journey. Although the contention became so sharp that Barnabas took his nephew and proceeded on their journey by themselves, Paul alter commended Mark, saying "He is profitable to me for the ministry" (2 Tim 4:11). Today we have the Gospel of Mark because faithful, dedicated and gentle barnabas was willing to help him over a hard place in his life. Phlegmels respond to the needs of others if they will just let themselves move out into the stream of life and work with people where they are.

I think that the paragraph on my weaknesses are more applicable and true compared to the rest of the information. How much do you agree to this chunk of survey results?

Omicron ο

2006-09-17T19:59:00.000+03:00

Its been a long time. I never intended to post now but i'm feeling really depressed and there isnt anybody to pour my heart out to.. not like anybody would care to listen to me anyway.

Have you felt the joy of being alone? Away from the hurtful people of this world? Yes, that includes those who are close to you. Your family, friends, etc. Life was almost that way until somebody special enters in and changed everything. And so you try to make things out with the perfect godsend companion, only to realise that the compatibility between the two of you starts to fade with time. To make things worse, you do not have the ability and knowledge to make things better when you make stupid blunders.

Now, if you knew that things were going to be that way, would you still choose to go close to that person? Or would you rather maintain your attitude of being alone? Afterall, you decided to be alone for the very fact that you don't have the capacity to be of good company. Why do you yearn for a peson even though you know he/she is going to die and leave you one day?

I hate it. hate it all.. I cant be myself. I get excited, my heart keeps pounding. Yet, i just dont know how to say it all. What a loser. Sigh.

Xi (ξ)

2006-06-27T16:35:00.000+03:00

Today marks the end of my common tests! :)

My deepest apologies for not blogging for such a long time. Especially to my mysterious tutor who is trying to help me improve my English. I haven't had the mood/motivation to post anything. Argh. Must work harder.

Anyway, i shall first talk about the mission trip i went on the 7th of June. It was great. There were a few hiccups here and there but nonetheless, we did well. Both the audience and the performers had an enjoyable time. The Malaysians laughed and cheered almost all the time. It seems so easy to please them compared to Singaporeans who would have thought that our performance was "lame" or boring. Halfway through the program, we were suppose to sit in with other groups and listen to them share the Gospel to the Msians who were non-believers. So I sat in with one group, and this guy started sharing to me in chinese. He was really excited when he found the chance to share to somebody. But i spoilt his fun when i told him i was a Christian already. How sad is that. >.< Well this trip makes it my second time going out of Singapore. I would like to travel overseas (and not just our neighbouring countries) more next time in the future. But there is no time and money for such trips. Sigh.

Moving on to the rest of my holidays... I must say that this holiday is one of the worst i have ever had. I used to go biking and do all sorts of cool stuff.. well maybe not cool but more useful than rotting at home. But this time i spent my days cooped up at home and playing Suikoden V. And you know what, i'm not done with the game yet. ^^ Had to start mugging for my remaining cts on the last wk. I realised having cts before and after the holidays can be rather advantageous. You dont have to cram all your mugging for so many subjects in the holidays. Initially i thought it was ridiculous cause i had to mug before and during the holidays. But now.. nvm. Btw, the exams were okay. I dont think i will do very badly. Math yesterday was quite easy. I got bored of the Chem paper today though. Weird. Those who are still in the middle of their exams. All the best! :) Oh I finally tidied up my shelves and personal drawer =) My mom constantly nagged at me to clear it up but i couldnt find the time to. But at long last, i have done it. Quite proud of myself.

Next up is the concert. I'm having second thoughts about asking pple to go now. The concert isn't that good. And its definitely not worth the money. I think our performances lack substance. Seriously, the script for the drama is utterly BORING, and its all about reflection of life as a jc student. But i'm pretty stressed up cause the band is playing Santana for the dancers. And i'm the drummer. So if i screw up, my band and the dancers will kill me. But please dont be mistaken, we do put in a reasonable amt of hard work to make this performance successful. Its just that it doesnt have a lot of creativity and thought put into the programmes. Ugh. Begone. Zzz..

Nu (ν)

2006-06-06T15:45:00.000+03:00

And i finally turn 17... Thanks to all who remembered and wished me. And thanks for the gifts as well.

Well, one week of the holidays have gone (just like that? @_@) and i have done pretty much.. nothing at all. By nothing i mean NONE of my homework are done nor have i mugged for my remaining common tests. But i already plan to start mugging during the third week. I spend the first week of my holidays in a very 'fruitful' manner. Lets see.. i've been going for practices, more practices, and even more practices. (Talk about monotony) The best part of this week wasnt my birthday. But rather helping out in the garage. Quite sadly, i feel that having an acappella group to perform for the garage isn't as interesting as having a band to perform. I mean not only was the turnout disappointing (for the 2nd day), but everybody's attention span was kinda short. But nevertheless, i thought it was a great performance by vertical harmony. Also, i managed to pick up some cooking skills.. which i believe will come in handy in future.

Anyway, tpjc is having this panorama concert on the 4th of July. Its to to celebrate tpjc's 20th anniversary and there will be performances put up by our performing arts people. Anybody interested? Tickets are being sold at $20/30. I know this is really ex but please buy the tickets from me so that i dont have to fork out my own money. lol. Nah buy the tickets because you want to go for the concert. I'm pretty sure you guys out there already know about the 'teacher-student scandal' in tpjc. i hope it doesnt affect your mood to go for this concert. :/ And tmr i'm departing for the mission trip! The entire trip is gonna end even before i know it. I really hope we're gonna do a gd job. I just have to act as a gangster and play well. And when i return i will have to go for band camp. Argh. What a long and tiring week. Sighh.

Mu (μ)

2006-05-19T17:09:00.000+03:00

Once again I'm drained. Completely drained. I should be sleeping now. But i'm still online for some reason.. Argh i have to report to the band room by 7.15am. Thats earlier than normal school days. All just for one stupid performance to commemorate colllege day. Borrring. And after that i need to go down to eh and runthrough the entire program for the mission trip. Thats not all... i still have to go to church for worship practice. Die. Where am i going to get the energy to study now? KO @_@

Cherish those who love you, and care for you. Never to take them for granted. And never ever hurt them. Self-pity and self-regard i know them not. But what matters is the appreciation of other people's feelings. There is no I, but only you/us.

lambda (λ)

2006-05-18T17:00:00.000+03:00

Guilt. An irrevocable mistake. But i see it all now. My eyes open before me and show me what i truly am.. what i truly desire. Self-centredness is like a disease. One that that spread to and affect others. Focusing on your own wants and needs, neglecting the emotions of others. I hate it. I hate it all... Why am i like that? I am in the wrong. Not you. You were never in the wrong. The way i treat you.. the way i'm insensible to your feelings... I am utterly sorry. I will learn to accept and respect what you want. Forget about myself, its all about you now, just all about you...

Sigh... So many things are cropping up.. i have rehearsal tmr for college day which will be held on saturday. I also have practice for the Malaysia Mission Trip which i will be going on the 7th of June. Physics and econs common tests are next week.. So many things to juggle yet there is time constraint. I need to manage my time better. Prioritise them and do them accordingly. At least there's the June holidays to look forward to. And my birthday :)

Time to go and do my reading log. And sleep early. If not i'll just die tmr.

Kappa (κ)

2006-05-17T15:10:00.000+03:00

Whatever took me so long to realise that i'm so pathetic? That i relate my emotions to other people by wanting some pity.. some help to boost my esteem.. so much so that i blatantly show my vulnerability. Especially to the people i love. The mind is weak and the heart gives in to the mind too easily. I'm ashamed. Very ashamed of myself.

Self centredness has caused me to preoccupy myself and my thoughts with what i want. Not what other people want. I dont show enough care and concern for others. Am i qualified to be called a Christian? One who loves God and loves man? Definitely not. I've changed.. or maybe i was always like that. But whatever the case, i will do something about my pathetic being and my esteem. I've got to. More self-reflection is needed. BUt not now... I have to prepare for Chemistry SPA.

But i will be back. Mark my words.

-Lord, Mould Me. Make me more like You.-

Iota (ι)

2006-05-16T17:20:00.000+03:00

Exhaustion

Physics SPA exam is up tmr. I've got to ace this skill. Its the easiest to score. I really hope i dont panic or else i'll flunk it. Grr...

And whats the problem with tpjc's committee members? Why must they arrange college day one week before the J1s 'common tests and the same week as the J1s' SPA exam? Have they no sympathy for the performers? I have to stay back for 3 days of this week to rehearse with the others. How infuriating. Sigh.

I'm so drained... I. need. my. sleep. ZZzzzz....

Theta (θ)

2006-05-15T15:32:00.000+03:00

think of memories and days gone by,
the days i'd known you and days i'd been shy,
and although you never loved me,
at least...it wasn't a lie.
But even if it were a lie,
i'll cling on to the times whereby,
we laughed; and talked; and joked; and cared;
and i didn't need to cry.

Sigh. Fond memories haunting me every single day. They creep in and deliver the sudden attack, shredding me into bits and pieces... Such despair. But life must go on doesnt it? :)

Some things are taught only by sufferings and failures. Every failure in life is an invitation to renew our life. Amen.

The wounds in our life truly reflect how much God means to us. Do we react to them by giving thanks? Do we deny Christ the way Peter did even though he was full of self-confidence? And do we close the doors of our heart? I must admit i'd rather be alone in times of depression. Where is God? Away from my mind. Shut out. Sigh. Something must be done.

Anyway, today was tpjc's sea sports carnival for the jc1s. I like my class. Although we came in last for the dragonboat race, at least everybody tried their best and row the oars. Haha. Congrats to jason,rinus, lock bin, quan zun and aloysius in coming in second (nearly first) in the relay race. Great teamwork guys! :)

I had an awful stomachache today and its ruining my appetite. I dont feel like eating dinner now. I feel like vomitting. Argh. And i have both my Chem and Physics SPA this week. @_@ By hook or by crook, i must get 8/8 for skill B!

Time to get to work.

Eta (η)

2006-05-05T17:11:00.001+03:00

I'm back to blog again. Heh. I always wonder how many people actually visit my blog. It feels as if nobody is looking at my posts and stuff. That will be quite sad but nvm. Lesser people will know about how atrocious my English is =P

This week of school was prettyy slack. There were only 3 school days. Reason being there was Labour Day on Monday and today there's Sports Day. And next week it will be Sea Sports carnival. Argh so many activities being held. So it affects our curriculum. Perhaps its one of the reasons why tpjc is not progressing well. hmm...

Anyway about today's Sports Day, i thought it was wonderful. really wonderful. For those of you who don't know, its the first year that tpjc is having a house system in the school. The houses are identified after birds ( Namely phoenix,hawk,seagull,heron,eagle and falcon.) I'm in Hawk btw. :) And guess what? my house emerged the Champion house for the overall event. Woohoo. What a spectacular startoff for the new house system. Even though i didnt contribute to the success in any way, i still feel a great sense of achievement. lol.

Something really funny happened just now. On my way to Eastpoint, i bump into my eldest brother who was apparently heading home to put down his stuff before going out again. So since he met me, he told me to take his bag home for him when i'm done at Eastpoint. Right at that moment, we saw my elder brother coming home from work! =) haha, so in the end i didnt have to carry the bag home anymore. It was quite heavy lol. But its a perfect coincidence for my eldest brother. He needed help and there it was. ^^

I'm running out of cash again.... Yikes. I really need to be more thrifty with my money. And start working harder to save. But once i shop for gifts, i'll splurge everything.. sigh. And i also need to grow taller. But height control is beyond one's will, isnt it? Well if you exclude the use of growth hormones, that is.

Next week is going to be another short week again. ARGH. Thanks to Vesak Day. But i'm going for some retreat camp by yfc. I sure hope its going to be useful.

Phew... Thats all for now. ZZzzzz....

Zeta ( ζ)

2006-04-29T06:24:00.000+03:00

Hey hey hey... i'm back. Apparently something is wrong with the font of my posts. Its all so tiny. If anyone knows how to rectify this problem can you tell me what to do? thanks.

The open house cum carnival wasnt so bad. My school invited the band Ronin to play for us. lol. they were super duper loud. but at least they liven the atmostphere up. The main singer of the band is an albino. how interesting. After that i didnt do much. only managed to watch magic card tricks and play with water rocket... all thanks to the econs lesson.

My week was pretty interesting. I went to tekong on wednesday for learning journey. Learnt quite a lot abt Basic Military Training (BMT) and cleared certain doubt about it too. Now i'm looking forward to it. heh. The guys in my class were discussing whether to go uni first then serve ns or the other way round. Most of them would rather go ns first then uni so that they have money to date girls in uni. lol. i think i'd prefer to serve ns first too, but not to because i'll have money to date girls. But come to think of it, my brain will probably rot and deteriorate by the time i get into uni.

Well thats about it for my week. If you exclude all the monotonous routine of mugging and doing homework and taking tests. I started reading (for assurance sake, i am still sane ^^) "24 HOURS" by Greg Iles. Its very interesting. I will finish this book before its due.

Gotta go to church for worship practice already. Au Revoir!

Epsilon (ε)

2006-04-19T19:53:00.000+03:00

Ugh. This few days i've been staying up to complete homework which i now deem as "unnecessary." I stay up to finish my work desperately, only to find out its actually not due. How great is that. >.<

Nvm about that, today i didnt go for band partly because i was sabotaged to enter some library competition and the other part was because and i wasnt feeling very well. The library competition was a COMPLETE waste of time... went to various stations to do speed reading, arrange books on the shelf and do some quiz. I went home to rest after that. The saddest part is only Bertram made it for band today >.<>

We presented our econs project today. We got an okay grade (30/50) considering we spent the entire saturday afternoon to do it. We have another one coming up in term 3. I wonder if we're going to Rinus's house again. Probably mine since aloysius does have powerpoint in his computer -_-"

I signed up for a workshop on social grace and eitquette with Rinus. I'm surprised that Yan Lin took it too (she's my classmate and she's a loudmouth >.<) I hope this workshop will reform me into a gentleman. lol.

TPJC's carnival cum open house is on this saturday from 10am-4pm. Anybody interested in coming? Everything is FOC. But i wont be able to tour you around because i have econs lesson. >.<>

Yearn. . . .

Delta (Δ δ)

2006-04-14T16:35:00.000+03:00

And so i'm back to post again. About the visit to the NEWater centre with rinus, we went there late cause our last period was Chemistry practical and you know how science practical lessons are always extended (depending on how fast you complete your practical.) Well anyway we managed to find the tour group because a lady found us wandering around. heh. The tour group consisted mainlyof Thai pple. I wondered how much of the tour did they understand. lol cause the tour guide kept asking them stuff like "do you understand?" and there was this long period of silence before he asked again and they answered. I feel accomplished because we managed to interview the tour guide after everyone went back. And i got answers which will help in my research.

I visited Joel's church today. It was just right beside Golden Mile Complex. They booked the entire auditorium for the congregation and we watched a movie called 'The Climb' The movie was about two mountain climbers (derrick and harris) who had the same passion to overcome this mountain (forgot the name of the mountain >.<) well they managed to reach the summit but on their way back down, they encountered a storm and they got lost. They continued to walk about aimlessly, derrick in front of harris. Halfway through, there was a block of snow which was about to fall on derrick. Harris immediately ran over to him and hook his carabiner (is that how you spell it?) and push him off the cliff. The block of snow fell on Harris and he was crushed to death. But he belayed Derrick under that block of snow. Real touching isnt it. It reflects Christ death for us sinners, who dont deserve God's love at all. Yet Jesus was the Holy sacrifice to bring us back to the Father. After the show we went for prayer session and went to the coffee shop nearby and had a big feast. :) Fortunately i didnt have to forego my Good Friday holiday to do the projects. HOWEVER, i have to do both the gp and econs project tmr. >.<>

Thats all for today. It was great seeing my best friends again. :) :)

Gamma (γ)

2006-04-11T13:06:00.000+03:00

I'm back! :) i changed my blog website because i felt that the previous one sound pretty gay >.<
I have lots of projects coming up soon. They are GP, Econs and PW. Sigh. May have to forego my Good Friday holiday to do the projects too. But at least i'm going to joel's church in the morning of Good Friday with Kin Chung. :) finally the three of us have some free time to catch up.

Anybody interested in going to the NEWater treatment plant with me? Going this thursday. So far only Rinus is willing and able to go with me. hah. I'm actually going there for my research on PW. Please let me know if you want to tag along.

I was rather disappointed with my GP and Econs teacher today. We arranged a meeting with them to discuss issues like our pi and collect weekend homework for the class. However they didnt turn and we actually gave up our lunch to meet them. Sigh. And my gp teacher didnt even go through my first draft of pi thoroughly.

I was suppose to go and exercise but i ended up watching tv at home. lol.

Beta (β)

2006-04-02T20:11:00.000+03:00

Yo! i finally found some time to update the blog. I'm writing this in the middle of my work. Sigh. Well... i went to church at 11am for band practice today because service started at 2pm instead of the usual 9am. Practice was okay but my playing for worship service sucked. The congregation was singing so slowly that i had to keep slowing down my tempo. Also, the songs chosen were mostly 3/4 and i detest 3/4 songs because they are hard to play and maintain! Argh. To make things worse, Cuiwen (the guitarist) kept telling me to play softer. How annoying. Dekai, (the other drummer whom i'm teaching) you are lucky you didnt play today or you'd DIE. Heh.

My Chinese tutor didnt come today. Dont know whether to feel glad or worried cause my Chinese is deproving tremendously and i really need the tuition. She couldnt make it because her cousin from Malaysia visited her and she had to spend time with her -_-" The worst part is we cant find any time during the weekdays to make up for today's lesson. My mom wants my sister and i to change Chinese tutor cause she has too many students. I'm contemplating on that too. But where to get patient and effective CHINESE teachers? ><

Enough abt Chinese, i have learnt how to use the new camera my dad got me! :) Its really useful! Can set it to different modes which will change the level of flash used. (real cool huh?) But i must be extra careful with it and not drop it. Got to be selfish and not lend it to anybody to use as well >.<>

Alpha (α)

2006-04-01T17:51:00.000+03:00

Boo! i have finally set up my very own blog! :) For those of you who are wondering, i set up this blog mainly because i want to improve the way i express myself. And what better place is there than a blog. At least thats what i think. So please feel free to drop by and give comments on my blog.

Anyway, today i accompanied my dad to Sim Lim Square to get camera parts because he just had a surgery and i tagged along to be his eye. My dad got me a new camera to share with my brothers :) because his camera is too difficult for us to use. It's a digital camera with 1 GB memory! (can take about 200 pictures!) And i have my own photo printer at home so i can edit the photos that i take and print them out. I never really liked taking pictures because i'll see my own acne scars. But i dont have to worry about that anymore. Heh. My dad told me not to tell my mom that he bought the camera if not she'll scold him. (its abt 700 bucks btw) How sneaky, but very nice of him to take the risk . Unfortunately, my mom found out.. because my elder brother (Colbert) went to use it in front of her. -_-"

Well... thats all for now folks. Nothing much happened. Just that Eugene seems to have misplaced his ez-link card. I hope he finds it soon.

Happy April Fools!